Enamour

Of late I have been quite taken by a specific word. The word is "enamour". According to Webster it means "to inflame with love". I am quite enamoured with the enamouring word of "enamour".

What if...?

"What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."

 

 

 

That quote was from a movie called Letters to Juliet. The movie is irrelevant, I just liked the quote because I think that it perfectly sums up how I've been feeling lately. 

 

There are about four or five events in my life where I look back and pinpoint a specific second in time and wonder "what if" I had done something different? How would my life have changed? Would I have not had to go through all of that? Would have I been saved that heartbreak? What if?! These thoughts have been torturing me for about a year. In the last 12 months I have had a complete and total paradigm shift on the world and my place in it. I have been able to look at my past and realize just how wrong I was. How stubborn and unwilling to listen to advice I was. How independent I was, to the point of a flaw. How often I put my faith and support onto those who let me fall. I was quite the little fool. But, luckily, I have somehow found my way out of that person and into the one that I am trying to me today. Of course I slip up and make mistakes, but at least now I can recognize where I am failing, more than I did before. All that is beside the point.

I have come to the realization that "what if?" doesn't matter in the slightest. The past, is the past. You cant change it. So why worry about it? All I can change at this point is my attitude and who I am right now. All that matters is right now.